中午去病房又看了一眼小唐和他的奶奶，两个人都挺好，小唐奶奶的气色好多了，老人家在输液的时候睡着了，儿子赌博欠下高利贷失踪了，孙子又住了院，也真是可怜。
趁着午休我又去医院后面百合花小区菜市场，管他柴门犬叫嚣，我来到卖筒子骨的摊子，呦老弟来了，胖胖的老板大姐和我打着招呼。
我觉得这个台词不是烧烤摊那个胖姐的吗？是不是凡是胖姐老板都用这个了，她捡好我常用的量称好递给我，我付了钱回院里去了食堂，找到老李头把骨头交给他，拍了拍他肩膀，老规矩我说道。
老李头会派小徒弟送汤过去，也省的那些柴门犬的走狗多嘴多舌。
下了班去学校旁的课外托管班接了女儿，她见我兴致不高，就一直在说些学校的事情想让我开心点，我摸了摸她的头，想吃点什么？作业都做完了吗？
做好了，老爸你是不是说明天我们去奶奶那里，我想吃奶奶做的打卤面。
好，我已经给奶奶发了微信，她已经买了牛腩给你做卤面和凉菜拉皮。
耶，女儿开心的甩着马尾辫走在小区的廊道里，老爸妈妈说没说给我带什么礼物？我们晚上和妈妈视频吧我想她了，女儿转过头说着。
我点了点头，九月份塔克就下了第一场雪，十一月份的塔克已经零下三十度了，我们爷俩在寒风中略显萧瑟。
睡前我带着女儿跟媳妇视频，打第二遍她才接通，穿着羽绒服在外面接电话，你在哪呢？我语气不善的问道？
她没回答我的问题，却跟女儿打着哈哈，嘟嘟（家里有族谱，女儿按辈分和字号，名字就叫何都彤）有没有想妈妈啊？女儿脸上露出委屈的表情，妈妈你啥时候回来呀？我和爸爸都想你了，女儿特意拉我出来背锅。
妈妈还有一周就回来了，我一听就炸了，不是再有三天就回来了吗？车票不都订好了吗？你这是玩的家都不要了是吧？昨天晚上打了多少次电话你为什么不接？
你就算晚也要回个电话啊，你在外面在干什么？
我一炸女儿就红了眼睛，扯扯我衣袖叫我冷静点，我站起身拿着电话出了女儿的房间。
回到自己的卧室，魏华你是不是有什么事瞒着我，这就出去参加个同学会旅游了一下，你连家的门朝哪开都不知道了吧？我大声的质问她。
你不用上班了吗？嘟嘟周三开家长会，你不是和老师还约了商讨寒假读书会的事情吗？
你玩的家和孩子都不管了吗？我对着手机发着火，单位那边我已经跟人事打了招呼，票也改签了。
魏华你这是已经安排好了才通知我们是吧？我不管你怎么理由，你必须按计划回来，不然就不要回来了，我挂掉电话喘着气，一转头看见女儿眼睛红红的站在门口。
我强忍着怒火走过去抱起女儿，嘟嘟你妈不要我们了，我知道这样和孩子说不好，但心里的怒气实在没法按耐。
嘟嘟搂着我的脖子，脸贴着我的额头，老爸妈妈不会不要我们的，她那边有事情你不要生她的气，嘟嘟一边说，一边哽咽着眼泪顺着我的额头留在嘴边。
我心疼的把女儿搂的更近，把她放在床上我和她躺在她的小床上，嘟嘟搂着我，嘴里喃喃的说着老爸别生气，慢慢的带着泪痕睡着了。
我看着女儿的脸庞心疼的无以复加，对魏华无故这样不回家，更气的心绪不宁。
她是不是出轨了，我心里胡乱猜测着，如果不是因为女儿我就直接去哈尔滨去找她了。
女儿想妈妈，又不想我和她妈妈吵架，所以懂事的安慰我，我这个老爸还要女儿来开导……
为了女儿我慢慢的平息心中的怒火，不管魏华究竟在干什么，她毕竟是要回来的，那我就等她回来弄个清楚。
魏华这些年和我一起平平淡淡的生活，从恋爱到现在虽说没有什么轰轰烈烈的爱情，但也小桥流水人家，平静中带着和谐。
我关上女儿卧室的灯，亲了一下她带着泪痕的小脸回到床上。
这T马一天，这都些什么事，自己鬼上身了吗？我感觉透不过气来，穿上衣服轻轻打开门走了出去。
夜里风小了很多，但气温还是在零下三十多度，冰冷刺骨的温度让人就像在冷冻柜里一样，我走在小区的人行道上，路上没有什么人。
路灯下，旁边的树枝上挂满了白霜，脚下发出嘎吱嘎吱踩雪的声音，天空上星星密集的像芝麻饼上的芝麻，嘴边的呼吸在外面变成了白色的雾气。
在这片天地间我伫立在夜空下，不知道还有谁也像我一样不睡觉出来透气吗，不过不同的时区和地域都会有时差。
有的地方要相差七八个小时，有天文科学家说是，在地球上看到的天上的星星，有的是在很远的光年以外传过来的光，当人们看到它的时候，可能这颗星球早已经毁灭了，只是它的光穿透了无边的宇宙，也让地球上的人看到。
这些光就是它的灵魂和在宇宙存在的证明。
人的感知是无法了解这个宇宙中，所有时空中存在的维度时间流，和不同的空间形态。当你以为你所存在的时空内就是全部的时候，这和一片树叶上的虫子是一样的。
心情慢慢的平复下来，搓搓了手拢在嘴边哈了口气。跺了剁被冻的刺痛的脚，慢慢开始在小路上慢跑着。
我相信在我的生命里一定是发生了什么我不懂的事情，从我的这个梦境里就能感受到，在我身上会发生什么？不管是好是坏该来的都是会来，就当自己的人生有不一样的精彩吧。
在这样的夜里，在这片星空之下我就这样，一边小跑一边给自己打着气，心情的郁结好了一些，睫毛和胡子上都挂满了白霜，我抹了一下脸转身向楼下跑去。
今晚能不能回到梦境之中？如果不能要怎么才能回去，管他的，顺其自然睡觉去。希望梦境中的自己，老妈老姐和狗狗都平安。
Noon to ward and looked at little don and his grandmother， are both fine， little tang grandma look much better， she fell asleep in the infusion， usury was missing the son gambling， grandson living again， also is really poor.
During the lunch break and I went to the hospital to lily behind the village market， tube he Chai Men dog howls， and I came to sell bobbin bone， yo bro， fat boss elder sister and I， greeting.
I think this line is not barbecue that fat elder sister?
Lao li first send a little student send soup， also province the gab Chai Men dog dog.
Off work to go to school by extracurricular class hosting the daughter， see her enthusiasm is not high， I have been talking about school want me to be happy， I touched her head， like to eat?
Ready， dad you said tomorrow we'll go to my grandma there， I would like to eat grandma's noodles with gravy.
Well， I have already sent my grandma WeChat， she has already bought do spiced beef brisket to surface and cold dish face-lifts.
Yeah， daughter happy swinging ponytail in the area of corridor， dad mom says didn't bring me what gift?
I nodded， tucker was the first snow in September， November tucker has thirty degrees below zero， we cannot father slightly bleak in the wind.
I took her two daughters to daughter-in-law video before going to bed， the second time she didn't get through， wearing a down jacket to answer the phone in the outside， where are you?
She did not answer my question， but with his daughter in ha ha， doodle (according to some extent and font size have a tree in the home， daughter， what is called red) do you think mom?
Mom will be back in a week， I Fried you listen and not come back in three days?
Even if you also want to call back later， what are you doing outside?
My daughter has red eyes， a blast tore off my sleeves asked me to calm down， I stood up with a phone out of her daughter's room.
Back to his bedroom， wei hua you hide from me， what's the matter that went out to attend a reunion tour once， you don't even know the door of the house which face?
You don't have to go to work?
Do you play home and children have no matter?
Wei hua you which is already arranged to inform us， right?
I choked back his anger went over and picked up the daughter， doodle your mama don't we， said children and I know it is not good， but in the heart of anger can't according to the resistance.
Doodle arm around my neck， her face against my forehead， dad mom won't don't we， she there are things you don't angry with her， said dudu， while choked out the tears ran down my forehead to stay in their mouth.
I love her daughter her closer， I put her in bed with her in her small bed， doodle hug me， mouth murmured the old daddy don't be angry， slowly fell asleep with tears.
I looked at her daughter's face love is hard to see， to wei hua so don't go home without a cause， more gas.
She is cheating， I guess in your heart， if not because I can go directly to Harbin to find her daughter.
Daughter wants to mom， don't want to I quarreled with her mother， so sensible to comfort me， I am a father and daughter to teach...
To her daughter I slowly quell the anger of the heart， no matter what wei hua was doing， she is， after all， to come back， I'll wait her come back to get a clear.
Wei hua flatly light life together with me over the years， from love to vigorous now although there is no love， but also Bridges the somebody else， in quiet with harmony.
I closed my daughter bedroom lamp， kissed her face with tears to go back to bed.
This T horse one day， this is what， his ghost body?
The night wind is much smaller， but the temperature is more than 30 degrees below zero， freezing temperatures to let a person just like in the freezer， I walk on the pavement of the village， there is no people on the road.
Under the streetlights， next to the branches covered with frost， feet a crunching on the voice of the snow， the sky the stars intensive like sesame sesame seed cake， mouth breathing out into a white mist.
In this piece of heaven and earth I stood under the night sky， don't know who else is like I didn't sleep out breathable， but different time zones and geographical will have jet lag.
In some places than seven or eight hours， astronomical scientists say， see the stars in the sky on earth， have a plenty of light coming in far light-years away， when people see it， may have been destroyed， on this planet just its light through the boundless universe， also let people see on the earth.
The light is the soul and the proof of existence of the universe.
People's perception is unable to understand the universe， all the time and space dimensions that exist in the time flow， and different space form.
Mood slowly calm down， rub his hands in his mouth to disturb a sigh of relief.
I believe that must be what happened in my life I do not understand， can feel from my dream， what will happen on me?
In such a night， I so under the sky， while trot to gas， the ease of the mood better， eyelash and beard are covered with frost， I turned to run downstairs to wipe the face.
Can you return to dreamland tonight?
