One thing about her which surprised me was her lack of timidity and fear.The terrible sea, the frail boat, the storms, the suffering, the strangeness and isolation of the situation, -- all that should have frightened a robust woman, -- seemed to make no impression upon her who had known life only in its most sheltered and consummately artificial aspects, and who was herself all fire and dew and mist, sublimated spirit, all that was soft and tender and clinging in woman.And yet am wrong.She was timid and afraid, but she possessed courage.The flesh and the qualms of the flesh she was heir to, but the flesh bore heavily only on the flesh.
And she was spirit, first and always spirit, etherealized essence of life, calm as her calm eyes, and sure of permanence in the changing order of the universe.
Came days of storm, days and nights of storm, when the ocean menaced us with its roaring whiteness, and the wind smote our struggling boat with a Titan's buffets.And ever we were flung off, farther and farther, to the northeast.It was in such a storm, and the worst that we had experienced, that I cast a weary glance to leeward, not in quest of anything, but more from the weariness of facing the elemental strife, and in mute appeal, almost, to the wrathful powers to cease and let us be.What I saw I could not at first believe.Days and nights of sleeplessness and anxiety had doubtless turned my head.I looked back at Maud, to identify myself, as it were, in time and space.The sight of her dear wet cheeks, her flying hair, and her brave brown eyes convinced me that my vision was still healthy.
Again I turned my face to leeward, and again I saw the jutting promontory, black and high and naked, the raging surf that broke about its base and beat its front high up with spouting fountains, the black and forbidding coast-line running toward the southeast and fringed with a tremendous scarf of white.
"Maud," I said."Maud."
She turned her head and beheld the sight.
"It cannot be Alaska!" she cried.
"Alas, no," I answered, and asked, "Can you swim?"She shook her head.
"Neither can I," I said."So we must get ashore without swimming, in some opening between the rocks through which we can drive the boat and clamber out.But we must be quick, most quick -- and sure."I spoke with a confidence she knew I did not feel, for she looked at me with that unfaltering gaze of hers and said:
"I have not thanked you yet for all you have done for me, but - - "She hesitated, as if in doubt how best to word her gratitude.
"Well?" I said, brutally, for I was not quite pleased with her thanking me.
"You might help me," she smiled.
"To acknowledge your obligations before you die? Not at all.We are not going to die.We shall land on that island, and we shall be snug and sheltered before the day is done."I spoke stoutly, but I did not believe a word.Nor was prompted to lie through fear.I felt no fear, though I was sure of death in that boiling surge amongst the rocks which was rapidly growing nearer.It was impossible to hoist sail and claw off that shore.The wind would instantly capsize the boat; the seas would swamp it the moment it fell into the trough; and, besides, the sail, lashed to the spare oars, dragged in the sea ahead of us.
As I say, I was not afraid to meet my own death, there, a few hundred yards to leeward; but I was appalled at the thought that Maud must die.
My cursed imagination saw her beaten and mangled against the rocks, and it was too terrible.I strove to compel myself to think we would make the landing safely, and so I spoke, not what I believed, but what I preferred to believe.
I recoiled before contemplation of that frightful death, and for a moment I entertained the wild idea of seizing Maud in my arms and leaping overboard.
